VISUAL diary.

Harshita Sood
Dec 24, 2020
11 min read

Updated: Feb 3, 2021

DAY 1-

With the Christmas coming I had so many thoughts going on around like

I guess it’s weird how we all believed in Santa for like almost 6-7yrs years still we can’t believe in ourselves for like 3sec. Why is that so?

Why do we need assurance on everything. Why do we need people to compliment us? Why cant we do that for ourselves. Why people are in depression why people are so lost? Why don’t they have any love left for themselves. Why don’t they care about their own thoughts and not of others. Why people who always offer a helping hand doesn’t receive any? People say do good to others you will receive the same. But then

people doing good deed always ends up being depressed or just sad? Is it in human nature or that's how we are? That we give and give love so much to others that we don't leave it for ourselves.

Day2-

Night is something that I always look unto.

For me, It’s the most peaceful time. They gives us space to build ourselves up, think about things we did . To cry over things that’s hurting us even more importantly: helping us to put up our shields for the next day. To come up as a much better person. To build up ourselves from nothing but of everything we have been through.

I guess only in night one can get the total glimpse of what a soul carries. How heavy one is because of their thoughts and not weight.

Only at night we can cry our hearts out, scream, give time to things we care about or work for things when world is asleep. Because no one is there to judge you . No one’s there when you cry ur heart out you can actually do it as much as you want. No one will point at you and say that you are such a crybaby. You can be yourself. Your true self and my friend that’s the real power of night.

Maybe its because moon keeps our secret safe and sun makes us face them.

Day3 -

So today i was cleaning my cupboard and saw bunch of my childhood pictures. THOSE PICTURES AND TIMES BOTH WERE PRICELES.

if we ever see Those times were actually golden. We were stupidly happy excited to almost everything. We carved for things. But now when you look at a teenager they might be so depressed. All rays of light have just vanished away. So far that they themselves can’t find their way back in.

For me, I guess childhood is the only stage in one’s life when they actually cares about themselves loves themselves and not only that but they also love and spread happiness whoever they see.

We believed in twinkling stars being tied up in a string. We believed in santa , we believed in so many stupid things but now why can’t we just believe in ourselves? Why we have lost all our hopes.

At first we used to build highways of happiness but now why we are all ourselves lost in them.

Day4-

We certainly live in a kind of world where you say wrong answer you get laughed at.

When you get dressed in a certain way you will be looked at.

Where people say “you need to eat more” or “lose weight”. You are too “skinny” or “too fat”

and if you don't know what you wanna do with your life you wont have one.

If you aren’t a part of a crowd you are just a loser.

We live in a kind of world where we all live up by other people expectations.

Where one word can end someone’s life.

Why do you have to be perfect in all means?

why can't we accept ourselves with who we are.

Day 5

So i found it on Pinterest while scrolling up and down. and tbh its one of the truest artwork i ever saw.

People say drugs and all can affect us badly but what about the things that have been around us so much and have been affecting us mentally.

Children of younger ages not looking up for the things they should certainly di rather they all are carving for things that in a certain way somewhere doesn’t even matter.

We have not only changed the way we used to be also we are destroying the ways of what we can be because we want ourselves to b socially acceptable .

Day6-

Its weird how certain things unknowingly catch your attention and you just stood there in silence for a minute just to appreciate the beauty all around you.

Day7 -

Yeah, so I looked where we all started and how the time passed .

I remembered how the world was turning upside down a year ago . From all the things happened I realized one thing that what goes around comes around . I remember how the world during actual lockdown when people were there in their homes for several months and outside the world was healing . Nature was coming back to existence, animals were finally happy. I still remember how beautiful the looked those days.

It actually shows how harmful and selfish we are. Humans are actually like the fungus to the environment.

p.s : I love clicking photos of sky and mountains. ;))

day8-

While scrolling through my phone I realize social media has become part of life. From making new friends, adding pictures to making us aware about important issues it plays important role in one's life.

liking pictures of friends and commenting on them is like showing a proof of being good friends . everyone believes the person who's commenting are the only true friends and if not they get offended the same.

and as per rituals we can say just like its a ritual for older people to share several good morning or meaningful text so that they try to make social media a better place by spreading positive vibes throughout.

also while being a part of social media we try to follow several rules, like reporting fake accounts or reporting accounts who try to take advantage of social media.

it is not only about this moreover it brings confidence and and strength in me to speak about my views and opinion.

day 9

We all have desire, wishes and want everything in life. And I want everything in life and I think there is nothing wrong in that as long as I'm not doing something wrong or not harming someone.

Today I spent my maximum of time thinking about the places I want to be and travel around.

Travelling has always been a dream to me and sometimes its all I want from my life .

taking memories and leaving footprint is all I want to do.

day 10

we should never judge someone until we know their story. Some people are afraid of promises rather some have fear of commitment or what we say “love” also many have trust issues. Sometimes people have all of these that makes them have tons of insecurities and brings a person to a point where he/she just can’t do anything about all this.

But that's okay.

Every person has some flaws. We all are fighting some battles still we are trying our best to bloom irrespective of our situations.

Today when I look back i see many people judging others by just seeing their appearance or the way they speak but its not all there is always more to the story things people don't tell .

even somedays I do the same mistake.

AUTUMN IS PRETTY THEN WHY EVERYTHING’s FALLING??

Day11

we live in the kind of world where we smoke out our happiness and sink in all the insecurities.

day 12

Today I watches the anime called '' the promise neverland'' . it is a thriller series and trust me you would not regret watching it. its a series basically about some orphans living in a farm in 2045. they were basically trade out after the age of 12 as food for demons . its about orphans escaping together who have been together for several years and call themselves each other's family. they have target to make this place better and safe for their kind. after finishing season one i couldn't keep calm to watch the next season which is to be published on 2021 so i started reading manga of the same series .

And this page is what inspired me alot.

It says the difference between animals and us is we can think and learn and make a way for ourselves. this anime got me thinking some weird thoughts . what if places like these actually exist in real life somewhere far where we aren't aware about.

For a survival means a human can go to any extent and sometimes takes steps he/she doesn't want to . This anime is something i really recommend to every one.

GO AND WATCHHHH...on GoGoanime.

Day 13

While I was working on this I realized that in this fast moving modern living world we often forget to ”live” our life. We keep ourselves engage in work, rush, deadlines and forget that the most important thing is to live, is to love ours self ,spend sometime for our very self.

we need time to listen what our heart says more than what a mind says.

we need to learn more trust more and more importantly heal more.

day14

No matter whatever you do someone will always be unhappy. Unfortunately, most of us give authorities not to ourselves but to the people for deciding the way we want to feel. we give them the power of making our emotions vary . Why is there need of a person every time why cant we all practice some self love and blame ourselves for the way we feel.

Self love is not as easy as it seems . and I seriously want people and more than that myself to know that happiness is around ourselves we just need to find a way to that.

Day 15

I just wanted to draw an aesthetic art. so, I drew this taking reference from Pinterest.

ps. Pinterest is actually like pin your interest .

also, i loved that quote.

day16

Trust me , looking at this is really oddly satisfying. :)

day17

we should never compare ourselves to others . Everyone is flawless in their own ways. we should trust our words and not others. the reason why we struggle is because we are used to compare our behind the scenes with everyone else highlight reel. When we constantly compare ourselves to others, we waste our precious life and time focusing on others people's life and not on us.

comparison often result in resentment. Resentment towards others and towards ourselves.

Day 18

Have you ever felt like something wrong is about to happen, even though everything seems fine and you have no actual real reasons to worry? A pressure on your chest that makes it hard to breathe and you can’t get rid of it?

People who haven’t experienced anxiety can’t understand how being against your own mind feels like and sometimes by trying to help, they can drag you down even more.

I would like to say this to all who are out their feeling the same when you speak in front of people , when you go out their in public or even when you are doing nothing and this anxiety is killing you up like mine.

then repeat after me whenever you feel low.

''Smile, Breathe & Go SLOWLY ''.

It is a famous quote by Thich Nhat Hanh

ps. nothing could ever explain anxiety better than this.

this is a typography work on anxiety which i wuld like to add on my visual diary . It is a assignment work of think lab . And i can relate to this very well.

Day19

MEMORIES

MEMORIES

My wall of 'memories'.

Looking at these pictures always brings smile on my lips and tears in my eyes.

looking at them makes us feel alive .

because it's the little memories that will last for lifetime.

For me , theses memories are just like this little jar of magic. when i open it it brings bundles of happiness and joy.

Day20

Ok, as per today, I did NOTHING. Just spent my whole day looking around in silence under the blanket.

putting up headphones and listening to music is all i need.

My thoughts were trashing in and out.

One of the major thought that is still stick up in my mind is People are not addicted to alcohol or drugs , they are rather addicted to escape the reality.

We all have a habit of saying things like he's an alcoholic, a druggist or anything but we never look at them and ask the reason behind the things which led them to this pt.

Day21

I today, went to a café and long drive with friends and trust me, it is sometimes all we need.

Sometimes, being with people you love can take all your problems away and bring sense of satisfaction knowing their are people who love us.

Day22

I painted my instax mini & it looks so beautiful now . I am in love with it :0

Day 23

Just like how Richard Serra, a sculptor, said he saw a painting that effect him so much. He knew he would never be able to make that . When he returned back, he picked up all his work and threw it all his in the river. He let go painting at that moment. But he did not discourage himself from giving up on art. He continue playing around and explore with art, and soon became a sculptor of modern art.

From this I certainly realized sometimes when we feel like we are not better and give up rather than just giving up we should work on weaknesses because only efforts can lead us to near perfection.

when we push us to cross out comfort / limit zone that's when we achieve something.

Day 24

So, i watches a ted-talk today of Marian Bantjes who's a graphic designer,

Her goal has always been to create somethings unexpected . I love how she draws her deep relation with the letters also her manipulations with typography and design.

sometimes when we spend our time on things and think its worthless but now I know, when we spend time on the things and put efforts it's never wasted. we invested our time and learnt something from it. for me, something worth while for me is my personal involvement and seriousness towards work.

Day 25

CHRISMAS is indeed the most beautiful time of the year. It has always been my ritual to watch as many as Christmas movies as i can on that day . So yeah, the vibes it gives are really positive and beautiful. the lights, the treats and more than that the belief in kids of doing good deeds in order to receive reward is amazing. Its like a positive reinforcement . but whatever it is more than Santa they belief in themselves for helping. Its a tremendous festival that brings joy all over the world.

Day 26

Learning is an on going process, we learn something new everyday. Somethings that are said unconsciously can consciously affect the person hearing them.

day 27

sometimes all you need to do is appreciate what's going on in present rather than expecting something in future or regretting over past.

day 28

passing through the roads, whenever I see beggars smiling even at their worst times gives me strength to live my life the way it is is. At my lows or highs , i remember to smile for whatever good is in their .

Day 29

I am on a family short trip my with my family to Agra. and it made me realize certain things.

Nature can actually heal all your problems. one long journey or a short trip can make you feel alive. Travelling has always been a runway stuff from my thoughts. It helps me to bring me back in life. to love myself when everything goes around.

small family trips makes me feel loved by the people who are true to me . family trips are full of happiness and craziness .

Day 30

On my way back to home from a fulfilled trip , i saw some accident that took place. and it was really horrifying. I mean it brought me into realizing, we dont know what's coming at us in another year, month, week, hour, minute or second. we really have no idea what will go around in another sec. so , its better to live the life the way you want in present and then think about the future . ALL WE HAVE IS NOW .

just a doodle of what i actually saw. It was horriying.

While scrolling through my phone I realize social media has become part of life. From making new friends, adding pictures to making us aware about important issues it plays important role in one's life.

liking pictures of friends and commenting on them is like showing a proof of being good friends . everyone believes the person who's commenting are the only true friends and if not they get offended the same.

and as per rituals we can say just like its a ritual for older people to share several good morning or meaningful text so that they try to make social media a better place by spreading positive vibes throughout.

also while being a part of social media we try to follow several rules, like reporting fake accounts or reporting accounts who try to take advantage of social media.

it is not only about this moreover it brings confidence and and strength in me to speak about my views and opinion.

We all have desire, wishes and want everything in life. And I want everything in life and I think there is nothing wrong in that as long as I'm not doing something wrong or not harming someone.

Today I spent my maximum of time thinking about the places I want to be and travel around.

Travelling has always been a dream to me and sometimes its all I want from my life .

taking memories and leaving footprint is all I want to do.

But that's okay.

Every person has some flaws. We all are fighting some battles still we are trying our best to bloom irrespective of our situations.

Today when I look back i see many people judging others by just seeing their appearance or the way they speak but its not all there is always more to the story things people don't tell .

even somedays I do the same mistake.

AUTUMN IS PRETTY THEN WHY EVERYTHING’s FALLING??

Day 13

While I was working on this I realized that in this fast moving modern living world we often forget to ”live” our life. We keep ourselves engage in work, rush, deadlines and forget that the most important thing is to live, is to love ours self ,spend sometime for our very self.

we need time to listen what our heart says more than what a mind says.

we need to learn more trust more and more importantly heal more.

day14

MEMORIES

My wall of 'memories'.

Looking at these pictures always brings smile on my lips and tears in my eyes.

looking at them makes us feel alive .

because it's the little memories that will last for lifetime.

because it's the little memories that will last for lifetime.

For me , theses memories are just like this little jar of magic. when i open it it brings bundles of happiness and joy.

Ok, as per today, I did NOTHING. Just spent my whole day looking around in silence under the blanket.

putting up headphones and listening to music is all i need.

My thoughts were trashing in and out.

One of the major thought that is still stick up in my mind is People are not addicted to alcohol or drugs , they are rather addicted to escape the reality.

We all have a habit of saying things like he's an alcoholic, a druggist or anything but we never look at them and ask the reason behind the things which led them to this pt.

I today, went to a café and long drive with friends and trust me, it is sometimes all we need.

Sometimes, being with people you love can take all your problems away and bring sense of satisfaction knowing their are people who love us.

I painted my instax mini & it looks so beautiful now . I am in love with it :0

From this I certainly realized sometimes when we feel like we are not better and give up rather than just giving up we should work on weaknesses because only efforts can lead us to near perfection.

when we push us to cross out comfort / limit zone that's when we achieve something.

So, i watches a ted-talk today of Marian Bantjes who's a graphic designer,

Her goal has always been to create somethings unexpected . I love how she draws her deep relation with the letters also her manipulations with typography and design.

sometimes when we spend our time on things and think its worthless but now I know, when we spend time on the things and put efforts it's never wasted. we invested our time and learnt something from it. for me, something worth while for me is my personal involvement and seriousness towards work.

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